Sunday Night Stuff

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anxiety, depression, life, work

Today was a nice, relaxing day. Walked the dogs early, went to the grocery store, did some laundry, watched a couple of videos, made dinner. Edited 2 batches of photos,posted some here and more on flickr.

And now my Sunday night nonsense … that strange combination of depression and anxiety. Anticipation of the upcoming work week, little of it good (except for getting paid, that is 🙂 ). And I tell myself, one year to go …

Wildflowers Say: It’s Springtime

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cubicle, life, Spring, time, wildflowers, work

I took a walk lunchtime and came across these wildflowers. Poppies I think. Used my phone to get this photo.

Nothing says “Spring” as loudly as wildflowers. We had a great spring day in Prescott with little wind. It was very hard to return to my unpleasant cubicle after getting outside. And it is getting harder as my cubicle dwelling approaches 35 years.

Lately I have become acutely aware of the passage of time and the finiteness of the time we each have. And spending it in a cubicle seems more and more wasteful.

Rage Quitting

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rage quit, rage quitting, resigning, work

Rage quitting is a term from games (I’m not a gamer but I like the phrase) where someone suddenly exits the game after having things go poorly for them, and often accompanied with some profanity.

In the work world a rage quit can be handing your ID badge, keys, etc. to your boss saying “I’m out of here” or some such.  Yesterday we had two such incidents in my building, one in my department and one in a group across the hall. Is there something in the water? The atmosphere? The emotional ether? Both individuals were people who retired and then returned to work part-time.

One of these folks I knew well, the other I did not recognize his name right away. For the one I know, this is way out of character. I have been pissed off at work, more than once in my 35 year career, but never quite that badly. Wow. I was shocked. Not a exit I would recommend.

Career End Game Thoughts

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burned out, career, end game, exhaustion, tired, wilted flower, work

Wilted Flower, originally uploaded by dagnyg.

Another work week is over, and this is how I feel. Tired, pretty burned out, weary.

Am I getting old?  Have I been doing the same kind of work for too long?  I think it’s the latter. 34 years of software, computers, programming, etc. since I graduated from college in 1977, a long time ago. My career has been good to me. I’ve been able to make a nice living, worked with interesting people, never been unemployed for a long spell. I’ve had choices – something really important to my well-being. Still, it has been a long time.

I’m not complaining. I have a very good life. And I don’t want to whine on the blog. Just thinking out loud, in public which is new for me.

So how to play out the next few years, the end game?  End games can be dangerous as there’s little if any time to recover from mistakes.

This has come into focus recently as Gary is retiring from his job of 32 years at the end of February. And I have been feeling restless. I’ve got a few more years to work – at least that’s my plan at the moment.

More later.